Know your AIQA- Ananya Dixit

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Hi, I am Ananya. I’m a student, currently 16 years old. I live in Mumbai. I aspire to be a physicist in the future. I’m and have always been very curious. I love to meet new people 
My story:A while ago I realized that I’m not straight. My first female crush is when I knew for a fact, that I’m definitely not straight. Unfortunately, she was the one who broke my heart. When I came out to her, she started drifting away from me. I don’t know if that was because she’s homophobic or what. This incident created a lot of insecurities. I didn’t have any friends at that time either so I decided to talk to my school counselor. I came out to her and expressed my insecurities to her hoping she would understand but I just felt like she was judging me the whole time. I never went back to her. For a few months, I lost all of my self-confidence, until, I started making online friends. That was the best decision I’ve ever made. I made a bunch of new friends whoever from the LGBT community and for the first time, I felt accepted. I felt loved. I felt safe, even though, I didn’t know them personally. There were times when on every little fight with my parents, I would want to come out to them because the burden was too heavy. Aaaand that did happen. I came out to my brother. I broke down in front of him and I couldn’t stop crying. At the moment, he seemed fine, like he didn’t care about my sexuality but the next day, he told my dad and there was a HUGE fight in my house where I had to pretend like I was straight and that my brother was lying. I had to pretend so I wouldn’t be beaten up. When my dad is angry, it’s honestly terrifying and my mom is very verbally abusive. That night, for the first time, I came out to my best friend because I wanted to cry and vent about what happened to me the whole day. Turns out, she’s bisexual too lol. My online friends became my best friends and I met many of them personally. After a while, I gained some confidence and came out to some of my school friends and they were very accepting. The conclusion to my story is that I’m still straight in my parents’ eyes and my mom and dad are still emotionally and verbally abusive but the good thing is that I’ve gained my confidence and a lot of new friends whom I cherish completely. I also went to my first pride parade this year! 

Why I chose to be a part of AIQA: Well, the answer is simple; I’m a bisexual female and as a part of the LGBT+ community, it is my job to work for the betterment of the community. I saw the entry form for AQIA on my friend’s story and I decided to join. By being a part of this association, I seek to help the members of the LGBT+ community. I want them to be confident about their sexuality and gender. I want the government to accept us like it accepts the rest of the citizens of this country.